Chapter 3 : Lifetime Partner

Someone who is always tangling up in my mind. I was lying on bed thinking what I had done until god send me someone perfect like this. I feel scared and insecure that one day if perfection will gone so soon though.

Perfection that I would like to see everyday. Perfection that I wouldn't wanna miss a single moment when I am with him. Perfection who can smile like Sun that brighten up your day. Perfection too much. You're really better than the best. Somehow you need to learn to live without me cause I always know perfection don't stay long.There are thousand word that I would say.

I took every single picture when your birthday, we cook, you fell sick, you play, we eat etc... You'll never know that your picture are daily essences that mustn't absent. I need them so much.

I know you'll sure felt that I'm kinda girlfriend who always cry and whine for no reason, but same as you do , I hope to know how much you want to stay beside you. It's hurt weeping alone during midnight thinking unnecessary stuff. I really wish to spend my life with you and going through an in-expectable life with you.

How could you make me fall for you so much when I don't really like you at first I wonder. I understood when people said that love is miracle. You've just got a spell over me. I am so blind right now.

p/s : Your diabetic-smile your never realise. ❤

Chapter 2 : Falling from Cloud 9

So much of mixed feeling being stuck my heart. I don't even know how long and how far i can walk with you. Insecurity over take the trust in between. I am feeling afraid on the inside. It will be done someday and I don't know when is it. Felt so tired for all this while, my heart truly need a break.

I felt so much parted from you. :/  We wasn't that close like what we used to be. I left nothing much to talk to you.  Everything is so different right now and I no idea why. I am really sorry. Good night.

Chapter 1 : The Sinful Intruder

It been a long while that I created a new blog since I had removed one since I broke up with my ex. I still remember, how do I crawling back from a grieved situation with broken heart until I met this guy who makes my life beautiful, accident , turbulent , and succulent. So I called him the sinful intruder. <3  There were swollen eyes, compromising , anxiousness, caress , tenderness and so on to make our love. I think  I am not going anywhere without him. He really loves me and vise versa :) When I looking him into sleep today, I can't really believe myself is drowning so deep in love with this guy. He got a really tall nose that I'd love to watch a whole day.

When too much stuck inside my brain, I can't really write out what do I wanted to write. I am really hoping nothing will happen between us in future. I know sometimes I am really a demanding girlfriend, figuring out myself an independent girl at all times. Maybe I am kind of the more "suffocate in silence" type , which case, he is always hard to find out what I was actually thinking. Somehow , I wish he know what was intricating up in my mind. Always when he is about to leave, I gon' let go reluctantly but no one ever knows how much I need him to stay. I am suffocate when he is away from me , so much he takes from me, I gonna going out of my mind.

Speaking of which, I just don't wanna make the situation hard for You and Your Family. They love you. When you smile , I just caught a glimpse of heaven, and my sky trembling down like OMG! I love you my baby boy. See, writing a blog is real hard for me. Words always fail to express how much I LOVE YOU.     I LOVE YOU! Now you know what I am actually doing in this while.

-xoxo-

Sleep also handsome <3 Get well soon.